In the summer of 2005 I weighed 278 lbs. I made a decision to lose weight and I did...by the spring of 2006 I was about 70lbs lighter. And by the time 2008 hit I was 112lbs lighter. I counted calories and was addicted to exercise, it was a passion of mine (5/6 days a week)....but I was also a stay at home mom and had plenty of time to do this. ( my experience, please don't take this personal if your a stay at home mom)
So fast forward to 2013. I am now working a full time job. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and mild depression in the fall of 2010 and since then I have put on about 55lbs, I have lost my passion for exercise, I don't care about eating healthy anymore. It can sometime take every last drop of effort just to get off the couch and go for a walk
When I was diagnosed with GAD I was prescribed Zoloft. It worked wonders for my anxiety but I quickly put on weight. I didn't want to stop it because I felt so good but I finally said "enough" after a year and after discussing it with my doctor I weaned myself off it. Since then I haven't taken anything. But I feel like I need something.
I am depressed and there are days when I can't stand the though of getting out of bed. My anxiety is up and down and I can't sleep at night.
I don't have insurance until January 1st (another reason why im not on anything, my husband was laid off in March and finally found a job ) But I plan on going to my doctor for something. I don't want to gain weight but Zoloft worked so well last time.
I just needed to vent. Im so frustrated with myself for getting so big. I want my 'umph' back, my desire to workout is gone and I just don't feel like myself at all.
Gotta go to work but will be back after.