Hi, I'm Marie I was on here a few years back and got quite involved with the ladies here.
A lot has changed since my first time here, iv since been diognosed with BPD I, explains a few things now and it's manageable to some degree.
I only take meds if I get a bout of mania, I can just about deal with the lows my husband knows how to spot when I start to cycle and can get me the help I need. Sometimes he misses it and I lose it completely.
I have lost a lot of weight since being here last and it helps a lot, my lows where always focused on my weight, days of crying and not leaving the house. I still have body hang ups and I'm back on the site because I need to lose another 20lbs safely. My lows now are focused around other aspects of my life.
When I'm on the meds for mania, Diazapram and other horrid drugs that make me unresponsive to life, I need all the motivational help I can get, I have started to think the meds bring me down so much it starts a low cycle.
Iv just come out of a manic state it only lasted 4 days but I did a lot of damage in the days and I'm trying to fix it all, it's hard.
Is there any other BPD suffers on here?
Thanks for reading