So I finally felt strong enough to right this post since I've been lurking on this forum for sometime. I'm not new to 3FC and always found this site to be very supportive in my weight loss journey.
A couple of weeks ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I had a mental breakdown about two months ago and was contemplating suicide. I've been in therapy for about six weeks and it seems to be helping. Unfortunately last night I had another breakdown (due to the news that I did not get a job I interviewed for) and felt that it was time to write about it here in the hopes that it would help me work through my issues.
Currently I work in a pretty hostile work environment and not to get too much into it, work for someone that is nasty, incompetent, and unfit for her position. To be honest I've had a pretty rough life and should've been in therapy years ago but this current job has brought all of my issues to the surface.
In the beginning I was doing very well with my eating choices and exercise because I felt like it was the only thing I could control. But now that I'm delving deeper and deeper into my issues I find that I've been lacking on both my diet and exercise.
I find it hard to turn to my family and friends about my issues because these are things I have never spoken to them about before and I can tell that they are sad, upset and don't know what to do or say to make things better. What they don't realize is that their words can't make anything better and that I have to work through this myself.
I feel incredibly lost and scared and feel like I have nobody to turn to. I am emotionally and physically exhausted by my depression and some days I can't even get out of bed. I know that exercise and eating healthy will help with my depression but right now I feel like I can't juggle both. I've had issues with food all of my life and knew at someone I would have to address them and things in my past to truly be a healthy person.
I'm sorry this is so long but wanted to introduce myself and hope that somebody could relate to what I'm saying and just share any tips they have with having depression and trying to lose weight/be healthy.