I've never been diagnosed with depression, but that's because I'm afraid that I will be because I know that I am. Fresh out of college, unemployed, my bills are due, and I find comfort in fatty greasy foods.
I've only recently found out that I wasn't always fat. My mother regularly called me fat and ugly as a child, but after looking at my old childhood pictures I realize that she was lying. I wasn't fat; I just believed I was so I kept eating thinking to myself 'why not, I'm fat anyway'. I want to eat right, but unhealthy foods are cheap, I can't afford gym memberships, and most of my friends are skinny and can't understand why I'm uncomfortable working out with them and I don't want to hear them complain that they're fat. I've got to figure something out fast because my cloths aren't fitting anymore and its getting more and more difficult to go outside because I think everyone is staring at my size.