Hi Dawn, I'm Amy.
When I first learned that I had a mental illness, I was pretty upset. I have had psychological issues starting from childhood though and have been in weekly therapy for sooo long. I finally told my therapist today that I don't know that I want to be doing this therapy stuff for the rest of my life. I think that psychological issues are sooo difficult to handle because not only are they things that others usually cannot identify with, they are still a bit 'hush-hush' in our society, which is a shame.
It is great that you are aware of what you want to work on. I was afraid of a Fibromyalgia diagnosis which I received last year, and when I received it, I was pretty upset. Now that I know what I have, I know how to treat it and it is a bit of a relief. A diagnosis can help identify the problem and then point you in the right direction for treatment and support.
Bipolar sucks, I'll be blunt. In my opinion it is also manageable with the right health care providers, medicines, support and individual hard work. I have come a long ways with it though because of therapy, med changes and work that I do on my own to better myself. A lot of the things that I have gone through in my life have made me stronger and thank you for admiring my bravery, that is very touching.
I am a medical assistant and I feel like I should know more about these illnesses and how to solve them too sometimes but then I realize, I am also just human.
If you'd like to private message for support, send me one! I'd love to hear from you. It would be nice to have a buddy. If not, I understand.
Take gentle care, and I admire your courage too.