Ever since we upped my topamax to 50mg I have been so... stable-everyone around me says so. They say I'm stable, normal, etc. And I agree. My thoughts. The way I think has totally changed. I miss my old way of thinking a little but it's for the best. I just feel.... sane. Idk how to explain it. It's amazing. I am so happy! Topamax probably didn't do it alone but it was more like the finishing touch. My bipolar is under control. My friends actually want to hang out with me! My dad is happy to see me appearing normal! My mom is happy I'm a step closer to functioning in society! Everything is okay now. I feel like how I felt when I was a kid (Before bipolar) except not sad (I was bullied). But I guess while I had a severe depression episode once I developed a daydreaming coping mechanism (escapism) so that has to go it's kinda screwing up my focus in school. I hope you all find your right meds some day <3
I know I will have an episode again some day but whatever lol at least I've got the right meds for me.