I've been dealing with major depressive disorder for a few years now, and recently things have gotten really rocky for me.
Really long story cut short, I feel like my depression is largely caused by my weight. I take medicine for my chemical imbalance, and I also see a therapist who is trying to work with me on my self confidence, and resentment issues. But I feel like most of that is useless if I don't loose all of the flab baggage.
In my head, it goes like this:
lose weight ---> gain self confidence ---> be able to accept myself ----> be healthy, and HAPPY
So of course you would think, well, loose the weight then! But the biggest downer in my depression is my motivation. Most of the time, it is not there, and it is hard for me to get anything done. I cry when I have to go to work, I cry because I have class, I can't concentrate, and I feel like I'm not smart enough to accomplish what it is I want to do. My room starts to look a HOT mess; clothes everywhere, trash bin overflowing, mail scattered all over the place. And then I start to feel lower because I know this is not who I am, and not who I want to be anymore.
I was wondering if there was anyone here that's ever felt like this, dealt with this, and has an advice on how they overcame it, and grabbed onto that motivation? What pushed you to take action?
And maybe if there's anyone out there who deals with depression that wants to talk about it, but can't find anyone who understands what it feels like to be so unbalanced.