Hi! I have been a member of 3fc.com for a while, but never really took advantage of it. I sometimes post or just go through the site reading.
I know I have to lose weight and I want to, but why can't I get motivated?
I have been dealing with depression for about 3 'know' years of my life. I know I have had depression for alot longer, but never went to the doctor until 3 years ago. I am on medication and I do feel great, but I still have my set backs and some issues.
For example, if I am an emotional eater. I eat when I am bored, sad, angry, if somebody pisses me off, or just because. I want to lose weight, but I want to do it my way with support, but not be pushed. Does that make sence? I love my husband dearly, but sometimes he just makes me darn mad. I know deep down, he wants me to lose weight. (I am at my heaviest ever) So he will say stuff like: "You like garden salads ...eat that!" But then sit there in front of me and eat a juicey burger, not really understanding how frustrating that is for me. He treats me great, but some things he says, hurts me and he thinks he is helping. He said: "If you drink this, your skin would clear up!" Instead of taking that as a supportive comment, I take it as an insult to my skin!" So then before I know it, I am stuffing my face dwelling on my skin. Now don't get me wrong, I have good skin, but I am 30 and have acne all the time because I drink alot of pop! Another bad choice of mine. I know my hubby is trying to help, but sometimes I just get mad and deliberately eat. Why can't I just take constructive critisism? I guess that is where my depression personality comes into play. I take things a little more seriously than most people. I worry lots.
Does anyone have any solutions for me to show my hubby exaclty what I am looking for? I don't wanna be pushed or I don't want to be made aware of my faults, but I need him by my side! Boy this is so tough to explain. Help!
Islandgurl29