Jiff is right,
It took me a year to lose about 100 lbs, and I also suffered some of the things you mentioned above, I remember the shaking like it was yesterday. I went to the doctor and my BP was sky high, so he automatically wanted to do a kidney test to see if something was going on. Thank God I was okay. It was due to the rapid weight loss and not eating correctly (what did I know, I was young and duh).
Your body is under way to much stress, not enuf food and to much exercise, plus this little girl (can't call her a woman if she does that to you). You don't need her crap.
How much more weight do you need to lose ?
Okay you need to realize that your world is going to change and for the better, I bet you look fantastic !! You'll see the more you hold your head up and smile the more people (women) will be attracted to you. You do not need or want someone like your ex-gf. Oh no, there are alot of wonderful women out there, and if the next one doesn't work out phooie, scratch it off as experience and on to the next.. I promise the right one will come along, especially when your not looking.
Now about the pills - STOP ! yes they are a form of speed. You need to put the brakes on NOW and start treating your body with respect (this comes from experience YES). The damage your doing now is not going to be worth it in the long run...trust me.
Eat properly, eat enuf calories, good calories, exercise is great, keep it up.... Don't let this chick destroy what you have worked on so hard for. You deserve better, you deserve to be happy okay!! and you will be.
Wish I could pull your ear and yell this at you
Life goes on, and its so worth living. You should be dang proud of yourself, but honestly, stop the pills okay.
Buy a good vitamin if you can't get all the nutrients from your food.
Hugssss !! let us know how your doing okay hun.
Love, Leenie (boy did this fire me up