I'm pretty frustrated with myself right now... I did so well all day, even though Mondays are CRAZY right now and I'm running around like a lunatic. But I've been feeling really depressed lately and it doesn't help that I really don't like my doctoral program that I'm in, so every day that I'm there is miserable, but I can't back out of it now because I would be ashamed.
SO on the way home from work this evening, I bought lots of chocolate. And the sad thing is... it actually numbed the sadness quite nicely.
Of course, now I feel sick, but that's as much from the Lithium as it is from the chocolate.
Sigh. Sometimes I don't know if I'm miserable because of the life I'm living and the choices I've made, or if I'm living the way that I am because I'm miserable. But either way, cutting out the chocolate binges is hard.
Bad day --> chocolate
