I had to do something
I've been depressed for a while and tried to kick it but I just couldn't do it on my own. This past December I started having panic attacks and lots of anxiety, I just didn't realize they were panic attacks at that point. One night this past Feb I was asleep and woke up suddenly feeling like I was really going to die. I thought I was having a heart attack, I'm only 33! I told my husband to take me to the ER and after all the tests they ran on me came back negative for heart trouble, they gave me a diagnosis for acid reflux and said goodbye.
My doctor prescribed me an acid reflux pill but it didn't help the episodes. Meanwhile, the anxiety was becoming more and more and some days I felt like a loose cannon and still having those horrid attacks once or twice a week. After talking to a few friends about it, they told me I might be having panic attacks. I finally decided to go back to the doctor and he said yes, it did sound like panic disorder and GAD. So he prescribed Effexor XR & I've been taking it for 2 days now.
I put weight loss on hold because I couldn't manage it although I do try to make good choices. I really hope with the combination of this medicine and group meetings I'll be able to better manage my diet.
I have lots of physical problems due to my weight and I've just learned I'm insulin resistant so I know staying the same weight or gaining weight is no longer an option. I don't want to become diabetic. I really believe if I can get my diet right I'll feel so much better, but I think I need to get my head right first.
For now I'm taking things in baby steps, I'm just going to try to stay away from the junk and focus on not binge eating. I believe this is a good start to physical recovery.
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