[BeTrueToYou]

So, to make a really long story as short as I can When I was 19 I went to see a counselor, who referred me to a psych. She said I was OCD and bipolar. She prescribed me meds that I never took. I had told my dad about the discovery and he pretty much said there is no such thing and embarrassed me. I never went back. I am now 22, and for the past few years have had some major ups and downs. I was in a serious relationship (have 5 pets, living together, sharing a car) and I wanted to get help. So I made an appt. 3 days before my appt by boyfriend took off without a word. He took all of our money and our car, and to be emotional, my heart. He left all of his clothes and personal effects. He literally pretended that he was going to his brothers to hang out, and instead moved to IA from AZ. I got one text saying he was gone, and have not gotten any contact since. Needless to say, I was glad I had an appt a few days later. This doctor told me I was OCD with some other anxiety issues, and severely depressed with bipolar. She prescribed Risperadone and Lamotrigine. I cannot believe the difference in how I feel. I have not started seeing a counselor yet, but I will. It has been 3 weeks, and I feel amazing. I mean I am of course sad and hurt about the relationship, but I know I will be okay. Also, my feelings about food have changed drastically. I am not hungry all of the time. I don't think about food constantly, and I don't cry all of the time or spend tons of money on nothing. It is making weight watchers a breeze for me. I never had any idea that my head issues had so much bearing on my food intake. It helps that being so sad and shocked over his leaving made me not eat for 2 weeks, I am sure my stomach shrunk after that. But still, I feel great and I am so happy to have a solution. Oh, and I am not talking to my dad about this this time around...I learned my lesson

~As an off topic comment, it turns out he discovered he had a kid in IA from a previous relationship. He did not tell me this, someone else did. I still don't understand how you can go from telling someone you want to marry them and have a future and in 12 hours take off without a word. It hurts, but I think the confusion and non-understanding makes it worse.

[dewdrop1970]

You are an inspiration to me.

[Transporter]

I'm happy that the medication has helped you feel better, your ex boyfriend made the right choice to stand by his child but it was not right the way he took off, he was probably ashamed/ scared to confront which obviously shows how deeply he felt about you, but at the end of the day, its his loss, time will help you move forward in your life, your weight loss, and you will find a guy thats worth your time and care.

[joyfulloser]

I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. Glad to hear you pulled through it!

[newbieblogger3]

You know what "they say" - Living well is the best revenge -so go forward feeling and looking better and better!! Best of luck...

[BeTrueToYou]

Thanks you!

[callie999]

Good for you!! I actually was one of those people who thought depression was sorta 'fake' and only an excuse, so when it hit me it was really hard to acknowledge. I understand skepticism, but if you feel SO much better that's hard to reconcile! And I think being happy is what matters, so if drugs and/or counseling are working that is totally awesome. For what it's worth, you can pursue legal means to get back the $ and maybe compensation for the car too if you were on the title or can prove you paid for part of it.

[BeTrueToYou]

Unfortunately I sold my car to pay of some of our bills, and we shared the car that was legally his. I wouldn't know how to get back the rent and bill money...

[bargoo]

Luna, I think you are handling much better than I could . Congratulations on being so level headed about this. Don't know the boyfriend and don't approve of what he did, but just imagine finding out you had a child and have never been told. I am sure this was quite a jolt to him and you can't blame him for wanting to meet his child. He could have handled it better, though. Good luck .

[BeTrueToYou]

I don't blame him for wanting to meet her and be a dad, as I did not know my dad until I was almost 10 years old. I would never wish that on any child. But he could have told me. I would have been sad but supportive. I don't know how he could go from I love you and will never stop loving you to taking off as if I never existed. Today was painful as I cleaned out our old apartment (the one we lived in prior to moving into the house). That was where he told me he loved me, we got our first pets together, and tons of other memories. I just can't stop crying today. I want to feel better so badly. I wish I had answers. He still hasn't spoken to me.