WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: My binge-eating (& my tendency to restrict food-intake after binges which inevitably leads to more bingeing!)
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: As I have depression, I have just started to realise how my binge-eating is really adding to my burden. I want to get healthy and focus on managing my depression and improving my body image. I'm really focusing on forcing myself to continue with healthy eating immediately after bingeing (rather than trying to skip meals to compensate). It's pretty tough as I'm an all-or-nothing mentality type of girl!
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I have severe treatment-resistant clinical depression and have been on meds for the past 13yrs. I often channel any negative emotions into food as, when i'm really down, it's the only thing I know which makes me feel happy for a moment. Craziness aside, I'm an outgoing, talkative and open person.
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: I take medication that increases my appetite and slows my metabolism.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: I feel very stable in mood and I feel very spiritual as of late. I feel that my mind and spirit are stable and comfortable. I feel that it is time to bring my body to a healthy place as well.
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I have bipolar disorder and I tend toward mania much more than depression. I have been in treatment for almost 20 years. I take lexapro and lithium with good results and minimal side effects. I live with my boyfriend who also has bipolar. He is type 2 and I am type 1.
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Reason: change goal weight
CHILDREN/AGES: son who is almost 20 and granddaughter who is 10 months old
HOBBIES/INTERESTS: writing, reading, jewelry making, painting, mental health research
PETS: male cat, Loki
TOP WEIGHT: 252
CURRENT WEIGHT: 239.5
GOAL WEIGHT: 180
HEIGHT: 5ft 8 in
EYE COLOR: brown
HAIR COLOR: dark blonde
OCCUPATION: asst director of a warmline
GEOGRAPHIC LOCATION: usa, ohio
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: the weight gaining medications I am on and portion control.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: I have thrown myself full force into getting healthy, my mind and spirit are well, now I need my body to be well.
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I have bipolar type 1 and was dx'd over 16 years ago. I tend toward mania and I work hard to manage my moods and behavior. I am happy with my life.
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Reason: i made a mistake filling out the form, lol
HOBBIES/INTERESTS: photography, taking care of my son, nature, decorating & housework, (Strange I know - but I love keeping it clean plus it's good exercise.) going to college, surfing the web, travel.
PETS: none right now.
TOP WEIGHT: 170
CURRENT WEIGHT: 145
GOAL WEIGHT: 115-120 & toned!
HEIGHT: 5ft 6 in
EYE COLOR: blue
HAIR COLOR: blonde, soon to be platinum!
OCCUPATION: stay at home mom, student.
GEOGRAPHIC LOCATION: Illinois - Yawn!
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: I am on medications that cause weight gain, almost uncontrolable 'munchies'. I hate not being able to control my eating.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: I can't take living unhapily with myself anymore.
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I have depression, anxiety, Chron's Disease. I am doing my best to keep healthy - my future depends on it.
GOAL WEIGHT: Right now? 5 pounds. Then 10%, then 199.
EYE COLOR: Grey
HAIR COLOR: Dark ash blonde
GEOGRAPHIC LOCATION: Waaaaay Upstate New York
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: Binge eating, depression, lack of control of what food comes into the house, Crohn's disease, EXCUSES
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: I'm trying to address the real UNDERLYING issues that I've had with food my entire life, rather than just dealing with the symptoms
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I'm having a tough time right now, emotionally, which is what started me back on this journey again. I usually try to be upbeat, but that hasn't been so easy lately -- dealing with serious physical AND emotional issues. It's hard for me to reach out and ask for help, so you may hear me trying to downplay how I'm feeling. I'm trying to break that habit, so I hope you'll all bear with me!
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: Self sabotage, like I keep the weigh on purpose, subconciously.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: I want the man who broke my heart twice to drool over me as I walk right over him. LOL that is true too but, I really want to control the source of personal heartbreak for years once and for all, and make him die of regret!
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I recently had a breakdown that reopened old scars and issues and I dont want to be that girl who hates herself anymore.
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: Portion control, for sure....and chocolate. Finding the energy to start making a good, healthy dinner when I've been at work all day, and not resorting to pizza to shut the kids up.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: I've had severe, treatment resistant depression for almost 20 years (diagnosed), and I'm finally stable on my meds (touch wood) so I'm hoping I can start to make some small baby steps towards this goal.
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I'm a vibrant, outgoing person (on the outside) and people are often shocked that I'm depressed. I detest exercise - except swimming. My husband works overseas and is only home a few weeks a year, so I'm on my own with the kids most of the time.
Starting Date of Weightloss Journey: i started this time october 19, 2009...but i've tried a bunch of times this past year...
Starting Weight: 127
Present Weight: 127
Goal Weight: 105
Biggest hurdle to overcome in weightloss: it takes me about a month of diet and exercise to lose a single pound which can be really disheartening.usually after a month of being really motivated and putting in lots of hard work, i give up. i have problems with overeating/emotional eating.
Following any specific plan: i started the fat smash diet on october 19, 2009.
What is different this time in your weight loss efforts than in the past: i really really want this. i'm sick of being uncomfortable in my own skin.and i think what's truly different is that i've joined 3fc! i've been on here and posting (mainly in featherweights and fat smash forum) for a couple weeks and it's really helped to keep me on track more than i ever thought it would.
Anything else you would like to share with us: i'm really excited to be here and meet you all!
CHILDREN/AGES: Ava just turned 2 and Caleb is almost 3 months old.
HOBBIES/INTERESTS: Being with my children, reading, decorating, cleaning, playing with my dogs, watching football and hockey, spending time with my husband.
PETS: 2 boxers, Lola and Roxy and a kitty cat Lea.
TOP WEIGHT: 216 pregnancy.
CURRENT WEIGHT: Not sure...hovering anywhere between 204 and 210.
GOAL WEIGHT: I would be happy to be 170, and THRILLED to be 140.
EYE COLOR: Brown.
HAIR COLOR: Dark brown.
GEOGRAPHIC LOCATION: Pittsburgh, Pa.
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: Portion control, late night eating. I have a lot of problems sleeping (even without crying babies) and I tend to eat at night.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL: I can't stand the way I feel in my body. It makes me sick to see what the fat has done to me. I need to do this for my kids, I need to do this for me. I'm fed up.
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? I was just recently diagnosed with an extremely underactive thyroid, so now I'm on synthroid. I have major panic/anxiety problems and take xanax for that, and I'm on zoloft for depression. I can honestly say that the reason for my panic attacks and depression is my weight. If I were thin...when I was thin, I never had these issues and I think if I lost weight, I wouldn't need the medicine anymore.
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WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM IN WEIGHT LOSS: I tend to binge on sweets.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT THIS TIME THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUCCESSFUL? I feel like I'm finally getting control over the other parts of my life and am ready to tackle my weight without the other obstacles getting in my way.
ANYTHING ELSE YOU WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU? After getting my undergrad in Spanish, I decided to back to school to get my teaching license. After a year and a half of classes and my student teaching experience, I thought for sure that was what I wanted to do. In August, I thought I had landed my dream job teaching Spanish. It was just too much for me and it landed me in the hospital and in a treatment program for depression. I am moving past that and changing careers and hopefully my life.
Goal Weight: Ultimately 125-130, but my first goal is to get below 200 lbs.
Biggest hurdle to overcome in weightloss: Depression, compulsive overeating, lack of self-control
Following any specific plan: Not at the moment
What is different this time in your weight loss efforts than in the past: I have no idea…I just know it’s try again or give up completely and I don’t have it in me to give up completely.
Anything else you would like to share with us: I started gaining weight back in 1996 after an especially traumatic year. Until then I was thin. I was 106 pounds and taking two, two hour karate classes a week. I was extremely active and could eat anything I wanted because my metabolism was so high, it just burned right off.
Then after my boyfriend committed suicide and I lost several friends to a car accident and a plane crash, I sunk into a SEVERE depression and gained a large amount of weight in a very short time.
Shortly before all this I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and put on meds but we didn’t get the chance to see if the meds worked because of having so many situational triggers.
My depression was completely debilitating for many years. I continued to gain weight and spent many years attempting and failing to lose the weight, which only added to my self-hatred.
I won’t go into detail here but I will just say that I have been in a very, very bad place for a long time, completely overwhelmed by self-hatred. I have absolutely no life, and if things continue with the way they are now, no hope for any kind of future.
But I am not ready to give up yet. So here I am. Trying again. God, help me. LOL