People tell me, Im fun to talk to, I brighten up their days, My childlike sense of humor is awesome. But I just cant see it.. today was a bad day and it never stopped spiraling downhill. Now Im sitting here because I can't sleep. Physically I hurt all over, which isn't necessarily new. Emotionally I just can't seem to stop crying. I think about myself and I hate myself and wonder what it is people really see in me, is it ME or is it someone I create to hide my misery filled shell? will I ever see what it is that makes me likable?
Im ranting I know but I had to get a tiny bit of it out. If I tried to put into words everything I would be here all night and this would be 50 pages long.