Anti-depressants and divorce
I weaned myself off Wellbutrin a while ago and seemed to be doing fine. But now my husband and I are going through a divorce. Of course, everything associated with that has been very painful and stressful. Basically, I spontaneously cry 10x a day.
My therapist is going to just say "Go back on the wellbutrin," but I think the crying and depression is more situational than anything else. The situation at home has is incredibly painful. My husband doesn't understand that even though I'm the one pushing for divorce as a resolution to our marital problems, I'm incredibly sad about the pain I am causing him (because I do love him, even though I don't think we can be happy together) and I also am mourning the loss of my marriage. I expect we will both be sad about it for a very long time.
I guess I feel more anxious than depressed. I'm also not eating much, which probably has me even more on edge. It's hard to eat. I feel anxiety when I get into my car to drive home because every interaction at home is now so tense & strained -- from what the kids will eat for dinner to who is going to help them with their homework to staying away when his family is coming over to talking about the future.
I want to resist my therapist when she suggests going back on the anti-depressants, because I don't think I'm chronically depressed and I don't think I need them. I did have a prescription for Xanax at one point. I'm thinking about asking her for a new prescription for that just to use when my anxiety gets bad.
Has anyone been through anything similar or have any thoughts?
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