Nervous...
I figured that some of you might have some advice for me (I've been running around 3FC getting all kinds of much needed advice lately). I have an appointment with a psychiatrist on Monday to talk about maybe getting on something that will just help me get back on track for a bit because I've been just... off. My moods have been off the wall and I go from bouncing around the room to bawling my eyes out and back in the couse of a few hours. The up part isn't so bad because I feel like I'm actually "normal" and motivated to do stuff and be successful, but the down part can be horrible. I'm seeing a therapist, so that's a start.
I'm afraid because I saw a psychiatrist when I was MUCH younger, like 8-11 years old, and in the couse of those 3 years, I took AT LEAST 21 different medications. Antidepressants, antipsychotics, mood stabilizers, you name it. Naturally, some combination of all the drugs I took when I was younger caused me to gain a LOT of weight at the time. Well, not really a lot, but when you're in 6th grade and people call you a whale at 5'0 and 130lbs, it's a lot. I tapered off everything but Adderall (now I'm on Vyvanse) for ADHD and started birth control for hormonal imbalances when I was in high school. However, being "big" and tormented combined with stimulants that reduce appetite is an easy recipe for an eating disorder, which is exactly what I developed. I'm in a shaky phase of recovery for now, but I am TERRIFIED that this doctor will prescribe me something that will make me even fatter, because I know that if that happens I will probably bounce back pretty badly in the other direction and get sick again. Plus, I just worked hard to lose even a little bit of weight.
Do doctors listen to concerns like this? Are there things (specifically antidepressants or mood stabilizers) that don't cause weight gain? I know most of what did it was the antipsychotic stuff like Seroquel, which I doubt they would put me on again anyway. At 20 now, I hope that's not the case. I don't want to ask my doctor for a specific med, because everyone works differently, but I'm curious as to what has worked for people and if my concerns will ultimately be considered.
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