First some back ground... I'm a well controled bipolar for the most part. I guess what I mean by that is that I have some good meds at the current time and I take them like clockwork.
Life was stressful but ok... now we find out my husbands unemployment insurance has actually been cut off after originally being told he had a 20 week extension. This means we're living on my menial salary at a job that I hate but can't leave. I know he's been looking for work but there's just nothign out there right now
He's been unemployed since the spring. I just don't know what we're going to do.
He's going to sell his truck and buy a beater, he won't let me do the same with my car which I'm kind of thankful for even though it's only one step up from a beater. He does odd jobs here and there, does some computer work, a bit of car work... but it's mostly for friends and we can't take much from them. He's trying to sell some stuff but it's tough, besides, who wants to buy a power boat and a compound bow in the middle of winter?
I'm just so stressed and unhappy, all I want to do is cry and stuff my face. I was going to work out but my legs are still killing me from the fitness test I failed yesterday. I'm really dreading going to see my parents tomorrow because I wear my heart on my sleeve and they can read me like a book. They're going to know something is wrong and I don't want to add to their problems, they're both disabled and already worried to death about my sister and niece. I have a horrible stress headache and I hurt all over. I want to crawl into bed and curl up in a ball.
What else can I do to alleviate stress??? I can't concentrate or sit still but at the same time I can hardly move.