Hi,
I'm sorry you've been having such a rough time. I went through a rough time a few years back where it seemed like I was caught in an endless cycle of bad news for about a year (relationship ending, relatives dying, family financial situation changing, car accident [everyone survived, even my car], ex being stupid) and even when the bad news ended and good things started to happen, it took a long time to feel better and relax into it. But in the end, I did feel better and I honestly feel that I have a deeper understanding of joy and happiness than I did before that year.
The advice you've been given so far is good. If you know your friend will support you through your sadness and you can patch things up with her, that could be good. Also seeing your doctor wouldn't hurt either as they often have good advice for dealing with depression.
Whatever you do though, you said that :
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bouncing back to feeling Okay after 2 months of mental **** isn't as easy as it sounds.
and you are exactly right. It's not easy...so don't worry about bouncing, just take it slowly. It sounds like you're still hurting from things that have happened and that's okay, you don't need to shut off that pain and pretend you were never upset. Work through it instead. You could try journaling those paranoid moments. Write down what you're feeling, as nonsensical as it may seem to you. It might help you get to the root and cause of what you're feeling and help you understand what you need to do, or ask someone else to do, to help you heal.
Exercising is actually a pretty good idea right now. It's a healthy way to channel your emotions, and gets the endorphins going which will make you feel physically better too.
Congrats on the promotion. I hope this is just the beginning of the better things waiting for you.