I dont know if I am allowed to post this. But I need to vent a little about my weight gain.
I know I posted before about my supposedly 'crash diet' which didnt take place, but it was only out of frustration that I wanted to do it.
I gained around 14 kg - net in my pregnancy. I say net as it is the weight that is still hanging after baby and other things are out of my body which also weighed.
Since giving birth in Dec 5, I was diagnosed with post partum depression while breastfeeding. I felt horrible. I felt as if I wanted to die, for no reason. Post partum depression is something I never knew to be so difficult until I went thru it.
I breastfed my son for 4 months because I had issues with my milk supply and eventually dried up. Now that my son is almost 6 months, I think I lost a little, and it might be noticeble. Mind you, I gained even more weight while breastfeeding because my milk would get better if I ate a lot.
Since my son was born, my sex drive is dead. Seriously. No joke. I am 1,70m and weight around 79kg. I was 69kg before pregnant and 64 newly married. This huge change in my body plus the horrible stretchmarks took over me and it might be affecting my relationship with my husband because he would feel like doing it and ME NO!
I need to do a change ASAP. We are moving to a new house in a few days, and there is this gym near by there which I plan to join as soon as we are settled. I also plan to eat healthier, but my main concentration will be on burning fat by exercising. I should see major changes in a month as I plan to get rid of lots of kilos before mid July since that's when we are going to visit our families for vacation.
I dont want things like this to affect my marriage and also I dont want it to affect my 'ME'.
Thank you for reading this. I just wanted to let things out.