I'm 31. I'm at the highest weight I've ever weighed in my life. I lost my job 23 months ago and packed on a fast 40 pounds. I have always had depression issues, I have always suffered panic attacks, but I've never taken medications for more than a month.
About 3 years ago I was put on Paxil and then Seroquel, I took myself off both because I didn't like drug induced side effects.
Anyway, I have gone deeper into my depression since losing my job AND from gaining this weight. I just can't get it off no matter what I do.
Last year I spent four months working out every other day to Hip Hop Abs and did not lose a single pound. Naturally, I gave up. Now I'm even more out of shape but at least I haven't gained more.
I'm not an overeater, but I do live on the poor man's diet. Most nights it's a decision between spaghetti and hot dogs, and usually soup & crackers for lunch or just some carrot sticks. This is an example of what I can afford.
I am at a very bad point right now. I have decided to post last summer's photos of myself around my bed so when I wake up the reality of what I've become will be the first thing I see before I start my day and the last thing I see before I sleep. I want this to motivate me to start walking again and to start working out again.
I find that in order to keep my interest in working out I have to switch up what I'm doing. So I have ordered a new workout routine that is on it's way in the mail, Crunchless Abs.
I'm glad I found 3 Fat Chicks in the library and thus their forum. I'm glad to have a place to talk about this.
Thank you.