Good morning gals!!!! And I do mean MORNIN! I woke up this morning at 6am. My alarm wouldn't have gone off til 7...ugh. A bit of anxiety I guess, but that will pass. I've got a lot on my mind, really.
I am a firm believer, first hand, really, that if you tell on your disease (or tell on yourself) it gets a little bit better. We are only as sick as our secrets. Holding on to my "secrets" makes them bigger and worse than they really are. Once I talked about my issues with encouraging others to make myself feel better with you guys and with my sponsor, I feel that need to do those behaviors slipping away. I do love and appreciate my husband, I never want to hurt him and I don't want to do something regrettable and stupid (even though the flirting, the suggestive conversations, the text messages, the emails, whatever is pretty regrettable in its own right) and screw that up. Plus, I have a lot of nerve behaving that way when I got all self righteous and indignant when he did it those two years ago. Two wrongs dont make a right, though it was never about revenge for me. But I remember what **** we went through getting past that back then, and I don't want to go back there.
It helps that I've decided to make the decision to work more on myself again. Physically, spiritually, emotionally. Especially the physical part. I mean, I've spent nine months working on the spiritual and emotional, now I need to get physically healthy and strong again. Especially if I am exercising, I KNOW from experience it will help with EVERYTHING else in life that is bothering me. My motivation, self esteem, stamina, energy, sleep, all of it.
Today: screen and report at 8:30am, GYM 9AM!!!!!, 12n meeting, community service 1:30-5:30, dinner in the crockpot this morning (do you think beef roast and tons of veggies is a healthy choice?) and homework/baths/etc family time.
Little LOL from this morning, I entered my breakfast in my FitDay this morning and was disappointed and frustrated...for a minute. We got a digital food scale and I weighed out and measured all my fruit for breakfast, 2 oz each of strawberries, pineapple, cantaloupe, honeydew, all real precise, right?! Then entered it (and my Kashi GoLean Crunch and skim milk) and got like 500 calories, and I was like, wow that is pretty high for breakfast??? Then I realized I entered 2 CUPS instead of 2 OZ of each of my fruits. Oh dear goodness.....DUUUUUUH my breakfast turned out to be like 350 cal, muuuuch better!
Does anyone remember what % of your day should be carbohydrates/ proteins/ fats? I see that little pie chart on FitDay and think, hmmm, looks like too much carbs to me, but I used to do a lot of low carb dieting (and kind of loved it from what I remember) so I have a prejudice against carbs, haha.
Shari, you and I are so close in so many ways. I've been depressed and sluggish lately too, did you see my first post this week? I am just miserable, trying to get myself out of this hole. Then you posted about your new baby, so I hope you are feeling better.
Someone else said it too, but school will really give you something to look forward to. I wish we lived closer together, we could try to keep each other on track, but we can check in here (and on fb!) and keep each other going!
MMavis!!! I'm glad you're still here too! You're another on the blues sisters train. What can we do to snap out of it!? I love TurboJam!!! Of course, I RARELY work out at home, but I do have a pirated copy of TJ, and it is a good workout! I hope the cold turns out to be nothing, I love Mucinex if that helps, it really dries out your chest and head. Take care honey! xo
Jeni, glad your belly is okay!!! Sorry will and maki are under the weather, hope tommy stays well!!!! EXCELLENT job with your running, your times keep getting better and better, I am just in awe of you. You've showed me that I can do it if I just commit and keep with it. Not that you were ever my size, but you still showed perseverence and kept with it, now look at you. Best shape of your life, AND you're MY age! I always thought our best years must have been our 20s but I see that mine could be my 30s or even my 40s. (OMG I am going to be 34 next month....okay, don't think about it now!
Tiara, sounds like you are really enjoying your WiiFit, mine is collecting dust
nahhh, but it has been awhile. I really got a good workout doing the EA trainer game, it comes with a resistance band and a leg strap to see how well you do your squats and lunges....which either I don't do very well or the strap can't really sense how well I do. Not to mention that damn strap is so small!!!! It really squeezes my thigh uncomfortably so I probably don't have it up high enough because of my size. You are really going with your loss, I think when you started on here you were closer to my size and you're shrinking right out from under me!!! KEEP IT UP!
Emiloots, OMG your boys' room sounds AMAZING!!!! I like what you said about it being the least appreciated room being the most work, true, true, but you'll be so glad you did it. Kids suck that they grow out of phases, we had to re paint Rachel's Dora room already but it is cool, I never got to pick the colors/themes to my childhood bedroom so I love that we do for OUR kids. And I LOVE hearing about your "kid wrangling"....gives me a good idea of your day to day routine...
So this GoWearFit, I'll have to google it and see more of what its all about. Is it expensive? I assume it's like the BodyBugg? Hope your puter gets fixed soon!!! xo
Zoochick I think you have the COOLEST job out there, WOW! And that is soooo cool how many calories you burn just at work. Do you get to work in one specific area with a certain kind of animal, or all over the place? And I agree, your muscles were probably holding on to water, watch and see what happens next!!! And, YES, do come back more often!!!!
Mindy, OMG 1200 calories makes me hungry just thinking about it!!!
So you cycle every few weeks or so? I used to do some calorie cycling by the day, like 1600-1600-1200-1800 like that. I don't remember if it helped or not but they say you should mix it up and keep the body guessing, so I see what you're doing. How are the kids (in your class I mean) ? Any good/funny kid stories lately!? My Rachel (5) is so funny at bathtime. She gets TICKED if I get water in her ears, she SCREAMS, "MY BRAIN, MY BRAIN!!!! You are getting my BRAIN WET!" which is funny and cute....except she really gets mad and SHREIKS it, which becomes less funny after awhile. LOL
Jeanette...sounds like you have a lot going on!!! Do you think you'll move or sell the other house? SO much work either way....uuuuugh. I hope never to move again, haha but I know better. How old are your kids? Are they all in school? (I know, I should read back last week or so when you joined us, I'm sure you told us then, but I didn't read the last few weeks) Where do you exercise? I belong to Ladies Super Fitness, which is kind of far for you, its over on 30th street, near McKinneys, college bowl, do you know it? It's only $15 a month, so even if it was a pain to go over there, its CHEAP and BIG. They have aerobics classes 3/4 times a day (9am, 4p,5p,6p sometimes 7p) TONS of cardio equipment, weights, omg it is so nice, and so big. The trainers are just young chicks, with little or no training, but you probably already know plenty enough to go on your own.
OMG I've been on here WAYYYYY too long, but Amy and Kris, I know you're out there....grazer, e32, you guys too!!! come out, come out, wherever you are. Love to all, I hope I didn't forget anyone. xo Michelle