I'm having such a problem loading the website and blogs for the past couple of days.. gonnna post an update here
Thursday - 1250 calories, 70 min gym/60 min hula, water+green tea
(I ate 2 pizzas from pizza hut blotting out the oil and cutting off the stuffed crust so 2 triangles.. I had such a guilt trip for the rest of the day I worked out extra hard >.< thankfully did not effect my weight... I drank water like a camel... so scared of sodium)
Friday - A little over 1250
~1325 calories
due to eating out at Chilli's..I barely ate anything still had a problem staying under.. I was so tempted to eat my BF's fries so I ate 3 fries and felt SUCH A GUILT TRIP ~.~
~30 min elliptical, 30 min pilates, 50 min treadmill, 90 min hulahoop
LOTS of water and green tea... so many bathroom trips >.<
I've been eating a few things I've been craving but it's in such a moderation and I calculate the calories before eating it... but I stilll feel such a HUGE guilt and depression when I eat it even though it's within my calorie allowance. I work out extra hard because of this guilt and drink so much water to make up for it. I need to learn to relax but I think I would rather eat my pre-planned and self-made meals and not have to deal with the huge guilt I feel eating outside food... it's disgusting how much calories are in restaurant foods...
To make matters worse, this site is giving me issues on loading so I don't have my normal outlet to let out my steam.
Official weigh-in is Monday (last monday was 173.5) .. I KNOW 2 lbs should make me happy since that's the recommended weight loss but I WANT more >.< we will see
I hope everyone else is having a saner and smart week. I'm driving myself and soon my bf crazy with the afternath of eating something bad.