First of all, I kept forgetting to thank you all for my b-day greetings a couple of weeks ago...Thank You!
Wow, i have been gone for a LONG time -so prepare for a LONG post. Thanks for missing me, I've missed all of you and I don't ever plan on leaving the group. Things have been very difficult since I was here last. This week, the did more layoffs and 1 of those people is a good friend in MY department. They have gotten rid of product that tanked, that is where the layoffs come from. So anyway, some of us took her out that night and got her drunk. Her and I got drunk the night before cause of work stress, so I've been tired and recovering from the 2 nights in a row...I can't do it anymore so it's official-I'm old! HaHa! On top of that, I got my first paycheck with a cut....ouch! Just as I thought. So I have to tighten the belt some more. I LITERALLY have to count every penny now. So healthy eating...yeah, this will be a challenge. Looks like I will be eating homemade soup most times so I can cut costs. I will probably have to look for a part-time job, if I can find one. Ugh-I don't have enough time to myself as it is. I've also been helping my mom and it's taking a lot of my time and patience. She just doesn't get what's going on-or rather she refuses to. It's her way and she's always right, so this is why we fight alot.
So between these two issues, I've been very depressed, tired, eating like crap, smoking again and absolutely no exercise. What the **** am I doing to myself?! I know the smoking and eating carbs and fatty foods temporarily induce endorphins and that's what I've done my whole life to try and 'be happy' and feel good. I know it's the wrong way and damages my body in the long run. But lately, it's just been easier and easy is what I need right now. I've had stress for a year now and I'm continually looking for a break, a long break, but I can't find it.
So that's where I stand and why I haven't been here. I just couldn't face you guys with the way I've been behaving. It is time, once again, to suck it up and face this challenge along with all my others. My weight has been fluctuating within 6 lbs. and today I am at the high end of that weight. I went to the grocery yesterday and got healthy foods (and a couple of bad ones so that when I cave in, it's not as bad as eating out-which I can't afford anyway).
I've 'adjusted' my ticker-UGH! I can still hit my 1st 3 month goal, but I gotta kick into gear. I signed up for one of those online calorie/nutrition sites, but don't remember which. I'm gonna check out a few and see which I like best. I would like something like CalorieKing, but without the monthly fee. I like how it gives you a pie chart breaking down your nutrition (protein, fat, carbs, etc). I just want to be able to log on, enter what I've eaten (and it keep my frequent foods listed to choose from), analyze it and get out. Quick, easy and free. If anyone can suggest something, I would appreciate it.
Neesy - Retaking your wedding photos with you dad is a really neat goal. I love it! I think Dancer may be onto something. You may just need a break and time to concentrate on strengthening your relationship with your husband before he leaves.
Tiff - You're wasting away! HaHa! Wow, you are doing awesome, I am sooo happy to see you losing it. And it looks like you are handling your stress the right way-exercise. And you're running, holy (use whatever word you want here, there are so many!)...that is incredible. I go MIA and you go running! I'm sure you are holding water, there is NO way you gained that back in a week. LMAO at kidding Nicole.
Nicole - You got a two piece bathing suit, woo hoo-Go girl! And you have your blond hair now, nice! You look soooo different, and sunny (like your personality). Hope it works out with your cousin (?) rooming with you. Looks like your eat good/eat bad battle is back. Maybe you can look back through the posts to see how you got control of it last time? And maybe find out what was triggering the good/bad eating. I know you'll figure it out. And I'm not ruffled, hehe! Great job on hitting your vacation goal!
Burgundy - I didn't see where you said how your sis was doing, but from comments, it looks like she is doing well. Happy to hear it. I'm not sure when you get back from vacation, or if you're already back. Let us know how it was-I have to live vicariously through all of you that can actually go somewhere! LOL!
Koshinogi - I don't know if I said welcome...so welcome! Neat to have someone across the 'pond', lol! Grilled chicken is great and you can do different spices for all kinds of results. If you like to cook and try new things, I recommend you check out
allrecipes.com. You can find anything and all with reviews, suggestions, nutrition analysis and you can create an online recipe box for free.
Dancerindenver - Welcome! Beware, Lindy (Nicole) will work your butt! HaHa! J/K, but she does kick it in when she goes to the gym, if only she could bottle that for the rest of us!
Sandy - I hope you had the best time possible while your daughter was in. And you've lost 2 more since I've been here, congrats!
WeightIWantToBe - Welcome! 40 lbs is great, even if it was a while back. From your ticker it looks like you kept it off and that is great!