Shari - you are beautiful and wonderful - and becoming the person that you "see" on the inside is SCARY!!!! I Know that completely! Right now I'm at the smallest that I've ever been since I was in High school - and although i can "see" myself as an adorable size 6 - it scares me. What happens if I look foreign to myself... what happens if DBF doesn't find me attractive (he likes bigger girls) - what if I lose all the weight and then add it all back ON!?!!??
It often seems that we are SO afraid of failing - that we don't really work at reaching our goals. I mean - I already have a great job that I love, an AMAZING daughter - an INCREDIBLE boyfriend, that more then likely I'll be marrying in the next few years... why do i have to fight to look what society feels is beautiful? It's a constant struggle. My reasoning is this -
1. I don't want to die from a disease that was complicated by my obesity
2. I don't want my daughter to grow up with "the fat mom"
3. I want to be able to walk around with confidence - instead of the fake smile that I constantly have on now.
4. I WANT TO DO THIS FOR ME!!!
Think about how good it feels to have the scale go down - or to fit into the next size down... and really - really think about why YOU are doing this? Why is it important to fight the battle for yourself? Not for others - not for society - not to get the "perfect partner" - not for anything other then your health and happiness.
Find your motivation - that's the key.
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for us all!
