I have been feeling strong and feeling like I have been doing a pretty good job with not overeating and not bingeing -- but now I am worried. Today is my son's birthday party. First we are going to a pizza buffet and then back to my house for the party. I have eaten to my heart's content at that buffet in the past and felt like a stuffed pig when I left
I am going to make myself a big salad and limit myself to 2 small thin crust slices (or at least I am going to try). I don't think that will be too awfully hard - though not exactly easy either - but what has me worried is the dreaded birthday cake. I have not had overt sugar for 20 days now and I am so afraid that this cake will be my undoing. I am going to do my best to not have so much as a bite (that is all it takes to set me off on a binge) and to only save enough for my son to have maybe one more piece... but that is hard for a six year old to understand. I CANNOT have that cake sitting around here or I know that I will cave and eat the whole darn thing. We are not picking it up until right before the party and it is all going home with grandparents and friends after the party - but that makes me feel guilty that I am giving away HIS cake because *I* cannot control myself
This makes me so mad at myself for being like this! Here it is a perfectly beautiful day - a birthday party day even - and all I can think about is that evil cake coming to get me
It sucks being like this!
Worried about tonight (food mentioned)
Don't feel guilty about getting rid of the extra cake, Water. Your son doesn't need it, and he'll want you to be healthy and live long, so don't stick that cake to your heart! 
I did okay! The funny thing is that he did not even notice that I did not eat any cake because he was having so much fun 
