For the first time I really feel like I want to fight against my binge eating. I just mindlessly let it take over my life for the past year after a trauma... and I gained back 50 lbs.
Today, my roommate brings home 2 large cakes from his graduation party. THEN he decides today is the day to buy his kitchen aid mixer lol and he, my sister and a friend proceed to bake brownies, cookies, and lemon bars.
They all just left, and now there is a bakery in my kitchen lol. I literally have tried to leave my room 2x now to go get things, but turn around each time. I thought I should post here as another distraction, and Im going to go to sleep now to avoid the temptation. ahhh. This is really hard.
A week/month ago I would go in there and eat numerous pieces totaling probably hundreds/a thousand calories. I still feel like any second I'm going to give in and do it. Binge eating is ridiculously difficult for me to control after a year or more of letting it control my entire life.