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I'm still working with my counselor. He said to me today he's not sure what i need his help for. I seem to have good coping strategies and and open approach. I think i explained myself to him, so we'll see what happens next week.
It sounds like your counselor is trying to build your confidence and believes in you. I bet it is still nice to have that reassurance that you are doing well, and using your skills to over come the binge eating.
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I've been binging almost every day for the past week
Congratulations! Its an accomplishment. I've been telling myself that every HOUR I don't binge is at least positive. Are you doing anything different?
I am still doing well. I am on day 20 binge free. I had to count twice because it just didn't seem possible. I can't believe I have made it this long again. The longest I have gone this winter binge free has been 21 days. I have to really start focusing and tell myself I can do this. I don't quite remember what it was specifically that made me break the last binge except for the stress of all the kids home during the holidays etc. I wanna make it to day 22 and beat my old record.!!
I am doing well considering the amount of stress that has gone on these past two weeks. I had been getting up at 4 every day to get into work extra early and train on the job I will be taking over when the lady takes maternity leave. I got better and more confident with what I was learning, not second guessing myself, except maybe still occasionally messing up the phone. However, I noticed I really felt guilty.
I would get to work before 6, stay until 10:30 or 11. Then I would either do my grocery shopping, go to the post office, library, or any of the other zillons errands I had. After all of that I would be home for lunch and then do loads of laundry, load the dishwasher, sweep or mop the floor, clean our bathroom, get dinner prepped or put in the crockpot, then go back to work. I felt like I was running on full tilt. I'd work again until 5. After work it was home again to prepare the rest of dinner, fold laundry, etc. Then by 7 or 8 a.m. I was having all I could do to keep my eyes open. I kept falling asleep very very early. I was not available for anyone it seemed after 8. I tried making it up by watching a movie with the kids one night at dinner, by the time it was over I was ready for bed. I didn't get much time with my husband and being so tired I was already asleep when he wanted to do something else.
I decided to ask for help, which I never ever do. I now have someone helping me after dinner, they are rotating..someone will help put leftovers away and "clean up" from dinner so I'm not doing it all and I can actually eat at decent time instead of 2 hours after everyone else. It might seem like very little but I notice its less stressful and I feel like less of a maid. I mean I would go non-stop all day and then when I came home at night sometimes I still had my coat on when I got the rest of dinner going or other stuff done and I was like wait a minute..this just isn't right I go from one job to another with no break whatsoever.
I remember before mentioning this and I listened when you guys suggested ASKING for help. Thank you. Because those are the times I would start getting so upset and then angry I'd bottle it up and it would build and build, then the next thing I knew I would explode into a binge.
I did managed to whip up muffins a couple mornings before I went to work I was trying to let my husband and kids know I hadn't forgotten them just because I was seeing them less or only when I was sleeping
I also checked this morning and was happy to find that I am in ketosis. I also noticed that I had dropped back down to 181-182, which is a start since earlier in the week the scale had read 185. I am reminding myself to avoid the nuts because of all the salt and the fact that I just can't seem to control myself when it comes to eating them. I have tried taking out just one serving but before I know it I go back and eventually I just say heck and eat the bag.