Sorry to do this but I feel like I have to vent and there's no one I can talk to about this. If you care enough to read this, thank you!
So I feel quite plump at 5'7" and 160. I have a small frame so I think this is about 25-30 pounds too much for me. I've been doing really well for awhile and lost about 10 pounds and firmed up. I felt really positive about my body's future and in control of myself. I actually didn't have the desire to overeat!
Then I decided to move in with some friends to another town. No problem, I'm excited about it! But the problem is that the deadline crept up on me and I suddenly felt I was drowning and overwhelmed, literally running from morning till night to get everything done. And I've been feeling stressed. I usually never stress, so I haven't really known how to handle it. I didn't feel like myself. And I started bingeing. I had these horrid nightly cravings for carbs and sugar and everything bad for me. And when I gave in once, then twice, then more....eventually I wasn't even trying to fight it anymore.
Then, as if that wasn't enough, my exhaustion has caused me to stop exercising. I had been doing a lot: jogging, circuits with weights, dancing, and elliptical. But now it's so sporadic that it's a joke.
I'm so fed up with myself and I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle because no matter what I can't seem to dredge up my old motivation. I wake up in the morning and think, "Today's the day, no more bingeing, gonna get a good workout, blah blah....". Next thing I know I'm eating mac and cheese and then wanting to crash. Why do I do this to myself??? I feel like a cow and I'm starting to feel hopeless and lost.
I keep thinking that when I lose weight and feel good about myself, life will start. "When I lose weight I'll do this and that and this...." I'm tired of waiting and I want to overcome myself and embrace life and feel in the moment and happy. Also I want to be healthy and stop having carb crashes and being sluggish. Any advice on getting back on track? Please remind me that there IS hope!!!