Thank you I really, really appreciate your support.
I actually, in probably an overly dramatic way, stood up and said "enough, I'm not going to indulge these worries anymore, it's useless." (but not in a shaming way, more of an empowering way)
Then I went into the kitchen and cooked myself a healthy omelette and had myself sit down and eat a real meal. Something that really causes me to stumble is if I eat in a snacky way. Like standing in the kitchen with my plate of quickly grabbed food on the counter and just eating it quickly and mindlessly. I think actually preparing myself something real and then having myself eat it like the real meal that it is helps my mind know that this is food for energy and not a food for comfort. I also told myself that if I wasn't satisfied then I can go back in a grab an apple but only after 30 minutes have passed, and I need to finish my glass of water first. So far it's only been 10 minutes after my meal and I'm feeling okay. Not great, but a little proud of myself for not binging right away. I still feel a little bit like binging but that's why a set a timer and a plan so that hopefully when the 30 minutes is up I'm in a better mindset to grab a healthy snack. For now I'm going to distract myself with something enjoyable.