Oh man, do I feel awful. I'm here to confess and get this off my chest and move on.
I had guests from out of town staying with us. 10 additional people (two of whom were small children who screamed a lot and I have chronic daily migraines). We are a family of 4 so having that many people to cook and clean for was so hard on me. I had help from my in laws but it was really a lot to take.
They came Friday night and I was ok. I ate at maintenance which didn't really make me feel proud of myself but it was ok.
Then on Saturday, we had lunch out and I ordered a very boring salad with no dressing and I felt really deprived.
I hadn't slept well because of the crying kids and having to sleep on the couch so I was already depleted so Saturday night, I binged. I ate until I felt sick and the food was coming up to my throat.
Sunday, they were all leaving so I was so relieved and I vowed to eat on plan. Once they left, I was still so sleep deprived and the binging just lasted all day. I felt so sick and my mind wasn't working properly. I was in a daze.
I didn't sleep enough last night either because of how awful I felt from all the food but I have committed to getting back on track today. I am doing well so far but I know I'm at risk. Once I fall off track, it takes a lot to get me back on. The sad thing is that I was binge-free for more than 3 months. I'm NOT going to let this continue. It just isn't worth it at all.
Thanks so much for listening.