I haven't really ever posted here so I hope it's okay I post now.
I guess I am just looking for some support because binging is territory that I am lost in. I have been doing well with my diet changes, got a fitbit, using MyFitnessPal and being HONEST in it for the first time (actually tracking binges etc) and I am really lost on how to control the urge to binge.
Last night, after a great day of healthy choice and even a solid hour in the gym, I had wicked cravings after dinner and ate 900 calories of snack food that my SO keeps around (that they keep it in their apartment is totally cool with me, I can't ever keep them from buying snack foods, especially since we don't live together and they love it). I ate my through a couple handfuls of Ruffles Sour Cream and Cheddar chips (the worst of all their flavors for calories!), 3 cookies, and about 2 servings of Honey Nut Cheerios with milk. I have no idea why, either. I just WANTED it. And then I felt so bad about it all. And then I weighed myself, like an idiot, and saw I had "gained" 3 pounds and totally convinced myself it was a true reading and that I had ruined everything and everyone would "notice" the gain.
I guess I am just looking for general ideas and support. I feel like such a failure because my cravings never go away. People always tell me "Once you get into your healthy diet you'll never crave that bad stuff again!" and just not true for me, not a day goes by I don't think "damn, I want a big mac" or an entire bag of chips.
Wow, what a rant. I am so sorry, people! I hope this is okay, I just feel really lost and wanted to get it all out.
Edit*: I put "no reason" in quotes because I have no idea what my reason for it was, but I know I have to figure that part out. Just wanted to clear it up if it was confusing in the title, hehe.