I confessed to two close friends - both of whom are overweight and one who used to be severely anorexic - that I am a binge eater/compulsive overeater. I thought they wouldn't judge me because I've never judged the one friend for having food issues or the other one for being a recovering anorexic. After I told them, they both got really quiet and just didn't say much beyond, "Oh, that's too bad."
I'm really embarrassed. Apparently, it's okay to be a recovering anorexic, but if I admit to anything, then suddenly, everything is awkward. I tried to explain how it's not the quantity of food as much as it's a mental state, but I don't think they were listening.
I feel so alone sometimes. I've often felt like if I could just lose this weight, I'll find my confidence and be more outgoing - that maybe I won't feel like the third wheel all the time.