hey everyone!
where the heck is everyone hiding these days?
well i hope some of you come out of hiding soon!
im doing very well, got a fantastic new job, a new pickup truck (ford ranger) and a whole new attitude
the earthquake really shook me up in more ways than one.
i really had things put into perspective----quick!
the food thing is going well, ive really released the diet mentality, its been a long process, but its become second nature to me now.
ive been totally eating on demand and been binge free, for quite awhile now, i dont even know how long because i let go of the counting days , weeks, etc.
my clothes have stayed the same size and i stopped gaining.
ive been a 12/14 for about 4 mths now.
its great to be at this stage.
ive finally found peace and self love.
yesterday i had to get a new i.d. made and when i looked at the picture, i felt a small twinge of the old feelings, like "i look fat, look at my double chin" which i hadnt felt in a long time.
i quickly caught myself and gently reminded myself that it was just a picture, a moment frozen and just not a flattering pose.
my anxiety slipped right away.
a big difference from a yr ago!!!!
im in the process of facing lifelong fears about things and its exhillerating!
im so busy getting out there and dealing with things that ive been afraid of, that i dont have the time or inclination to ruminate over food and body issues, its awesome.
i hope to hear from you guys soon, meg, fullhouse, kymber and all the rest.
miss reading your posts and need to catch up on you guys.
love and hugs,
wendy
