I don't post much on this site, but lurk frequently...however today I felt I needed to make an admission. I was reading information on pinterest last night and came across a blog about a woman fighting with binge eating. I never thought much of it until she posted a picture from a magazine about the guidelines determining whether you are a binge eater.....I am.
I thought I had 'control' issues and it was just my poor willpower that lead to constant yo-yoing in my weight. I thought it was normal to get a little caesars pizza and eat it in my car when I had a bad day..then throwing away the box so that my husband never knew. I eat until I want to vomit, often thinking how easy it would be to do so. I thought it was normal to be obsessive over the food in the house, getting upset that my husband eats something that I had planned on eating later when he was asleep or in another room. I obsess over what he eats, i feel guilty after eating what i eat, I eat until i feel so ashamed of myself I don't know what to do. But in front of my husband, he sees me eating small portions, eating healthy.
I can get it in control for a while and lose weight, but then I don't know what happens.
I needed to tell someone, so I decided to post here. Thanks for reading.