7K cals in 24h

xty · 09-10-2011, 01:19 AM

This is a sad happy post.

I binged. Did not quite make it to the 3 month binge free mark before it happened this past Monday.

Was just starting my period and there was a serious hormonal component. It started with the decision I deserved and could have a treat. At 1am. (sober!). So I left the house to get ice cream, thinking maybe I could eat some. I sorta already knew that was unlikely to work.

I ate the entire pint. The next morning, I kept at it with the mentality "since Im high on sugar, mind as well indulge this 24h on the things I wont get to eat again forever!"

So I had a muffin. Then pizza and candy at the office.

It wasnt the most "stuffing" style of binge I have had. But it was definitely a binge. When I totaled all the cals it was over 7k between the first ice cream and 24h later (ended also with ice cream).

I decided that it didnt have to be the end of the world though. That having an episode once a quarter would be amazing actually! What a victory that would be. I decided I just HAD to make sure it didnt keep going.

So I told people. My trainer and a coworker and a friend. And I tried really hard for 3 days, my high risk time after stopping a binge.

The 72h following are always the hardest for me. Cravings, willpower issues, compulsive thoughts, and usually depression and physical illness brought about the absurd intake of complete crap so different than my normal food.

So today is the end of day 3. And I made it. I havent eaten perfectly, but I definitely havent binged. Workouts and ~1400 cals of good foods. I think it might be able to be stopped at just the one this time around.

Wish me luck and Ill check in again after the weekend. xoxo

Lovely · 09-10-2011, 01:27 AM

Wow! Way to get back on plan and avoid more binging!

Divaintheworks · 09-10-2011, 02:50 AM

I have seen these days way too many times to count! Way to go..sticking it out for the 3 days. That took true strength and determination. Not to mention true smarts to hold yourself accountable by involving other people. Awesome!!!!

xty · 09-12-2011, 12:32 AM

Thanks for the support.

Ive done ok this weekend. Cals are just barely in rage...ate too much peanutbutter the last 2 days and super craving that or ice cream right now. Ugh. Must not give in. Going to try to go to bed early instead, so I can wake up rested for my workout at 730am with trainer.

christine123 · 09-12-2011, 12:32 PM

I hope you had a better day today! I understand this because I've been overeating, bordering what I would consider binging... really I am toeing the line. I am not at the planned state where I go and specifically buy what I plan to binge on, nor am I holed up in my room isolated and stuffing my face. BUT, I am overeating every few days or so. It's bordering an all-out binge, but not quite the 7k or 8k cal binges I am used to, and not really planned or totally compulsive. It's one weekend that set me off into this insanity. The 3rd day is always the hardest for me to regain control. The first day, I am usually stuffed still so it's not as hard to control eating. The 2nd day, I am thankful I made it and the bloat is reducing so I want to stay on that train. Day 3 it when I've found myself white knuckling it and then the bargaining comes in "oh it wasn't that bad, I still look ok, my pants still fit." Anyway, lots of hugs to you. Just know, we folks on here get it! Wishing you an easier day

boomerang · 09-12-2011, 01:53 PM

xty and Christine, you are both an inspiration! The "day after" efforts and successes you've had will be a reminder to someone like me that it can be done! Thank you for sharing your stories. Those of us who are on our way to goal wt. YET AGAIN, sometimes tend to think that we are the only ones who binge and once we do it may take days...weeks, months or years before we start again.

xty · 09-12-2011, 07:08 PM

Christine and boomerang - thanks for the support!

I made it thru the night!! No more food, just went to bed and so far I am doing great today.

One day (heck sometimes one hour!) at a time. <3

boomerang · 09-12-2011, 10:34 PM

xty, the inspiration you provide will be a daily reminder that regardless of what our ticker shows (well, I don't actually have one but you know what I mean), we struggle with similar issues and the problems can be conquered. The fact that we need to do it, sometimes one minute at a time, is difficult but part of a life-long "opportunity" to succeed. How's that for a positive spin?

krampus · 09-13-2011, 07:38 AM

xty I'm glad to hear you got to almost 3 months binge free! Had been wondering how you were doing. It sounds like you have nipped a serious relapse in the bud...you're strong! You can make it!

xty · 09-17-2011, 02:41 PM

boomerag you are SO sweet. we all inspire each other, which is why I love this place

krampus! hope you have been doing well and thanks so much for the support.

I had a week of higher carbs (~100g a day, when my usual is 50-70), and slightly excessive peanutbutter eating after that day of binges. But my weight was back down to 137 before I left for Philly a couple days ago.

Pretty DARN impressed with myself. My sister met me where and I took her on a city tour, and my tours include massive food options....she ate all sorts of bread and sugar and I didnt even feel the slightest bit tempted.

Yay!! Fully expect I can go another 3mo (or more?!).

boomerang · 09-17-2011, 04:37 PM

Oh xty, I have to admit that I cannot imagine ever "not being the slightest bit tempted" in the scenario you described. On the other hand, I can understand how, having arrived at those spectacular numbers, you will not allow anything to derail you!

How wonderful that you had such a lovely time in Philly and felt comfortable and IN CONTROL!

lushless · 10-10-2011, 05:24 PM

Great job getting back on plan! I think one of the hugest steps is identifying the feelings and compulsions and patterns we develop with binge eating. I wish I was so self-aware!