Listen, you are NOT disgusting. You have a problem with food and it's a disease. Would you feel the same way if you had cancer or MS? Those are 'okay' disease to have and noble if you fight them, but somehow we think we're pathetic and weak if our struggle is against food! You are a valuable person - over weight or not. Keep a focus on that!
Absolutely I can eat a meal and just keep eating. Sometimes I'll eat until I'm full, then keep going until I'm stuffed, and then keep going until I almost feel sick. And here's the reason why - it's not the food I crave! I thought it was, and, yes, I still fight my cravings, (every day, several times a day) but I know that it's something
else that I really crave. It's attention, affection, encouragement, friendship and peace. Believe it or not, food is not what YOU crave either. There is something inside that needs to be filled and food is the easiest thing to fill it with.
You feel depressed because you're 50 pounds over weight - honey, I'm 100 pounds over weight! Just imagine how I feel some mornings!
But then my husband hugs or or my little girl says she loves me and I know that I AM worthy of love and a special person and I deserve to regain my power over food. Keep strong and know that you are loved and appreciated and that you can win this fight over food!
JohnnieAnn