Day 48!
This weekend has been pretty bad, as far as junk food consumption goes. Being at my parents' house is a trigger for emotional eating, even if it's not binging.
I started feeling hatred towards my body again this weekend and I think it's a result of the emotional eating. Since I stopped binging, I find myself much less preoccupied with my fat and my stretch marks and my unwanted curves, but suddenly this weekend I find myself staring at my gut and pinching my hips and all this stuff I used to do on a daily basis. This signals to me that I've been getting off track with my healthy attitudes.
It started with my TOM two weeks ago--I felt awful and gave myself permission, not to binge, but to make whatever food choices I wanted. And I did. And then I did the next day, and so on. Basically, I've been eating whatever I've wanted for the past two weeks, not recording it in my food diary. I have not been binging, which is a huge, huge step for me, and it shows in that I've still maintained my weight loss, and maybe even lost a little more? I don't know for sure, but I don't think I've gone over maintenance calories more than a couple times, and have probably been under just as many.
So anyway, I miss how I felt last month, when I was seeing NSVs fairly often, and I want to go back to tracking my food and making healthier decisions and trying to keep it around 1500 calories a day. I have done well today