Hmmm.. so I'm almost done with Day 5 and I got my little prize but I'm not feeling very strong right now for some reason. I need to figure out why I feel this way towards the weekend. Is it that I feel I've worked hard all week and "deserve it?" Is it a way to blow off steam? I am extremely stressed out. Normally, I would keep myself busy, and I have PLENTY to do, but I don't wan to right now. I want to just relax for a while. However, relaxing doesn't mean binging! My brain is just out of whack, honestly. I wish I didn't have to psych myself up for not stuffing myself. I've been doing so well and feeling better. I need to stay strong right now. I will not binge. I won't do this. I'll feel like crap during and after. The food is not worth it. I am not dealing with my feelings in an appropriate way. I need to do something to at least distract myself. Period.
Thanks for letting me vent. I'll be back later when I'm in a more stable place, hopefully.
vixsin, tyla- We are going to have control, candy is empty calories, we are not going to let it beat us this time. We are going to be the winners(not the candy) this Halloween!
Hi all- Day 3 went good. No cravings, if I wanted something extra to eat, I chose healthy food, not the crap. Not even tempted this time. I decided for Halloween night, that I will put out veggies & fruit for myself to munch on. The rest of the family can have the junk food if they want it, I will not touch it!
Day 3, sometimes its easy, sometimes it feels hard.
The upside: Its day 3, I have had a friend staying and I have continued to eat healthy and make really nutritious food choices. I have felt hungry and managed those feeling. Note to self: Its ok to be hungry I will not die! LOL
The downside: I am still hacked off for letting myself get from 144p to 151p. All that carb/binge creep over the past few months. What was I thinking! I want to get back to how it was but I know that will take some time. I went to the gym and had a lacklustre workout.
Day 6 is going really well, and it's a Saturday. How great is that?
Hope everyone is doing well! i76 I always say that to myself, too. It's ok to be a little hungry, it's ok to not be able to eat what I want in the AMOUNTS I want it in. It's ok to say no to myself. Sometimes I just have to keep on repeating it! lol
Good job everyone!
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Day 4, finally losing the water weight, feeling back to normal. I was watching a Dr. on T.V today, he's really good, and he believes in alot of the same things I do about food. He's a psychiatrist, he was talking about his way of eating and thinking, he said it depends on what type of brain you have, that controls what type of eater you are( binger, over eater) His name is Dr. Amen, not pronounced the way it looks, he was on our public broadcasting channel. I'm going to look him up on the internet, after I listened to what he had to say, eating issues suddenly made sense to me, and I no longer even wanted to eat crappy food again. If I could watch him everyday, I wouldn't even want to binge or overeat, he really motivated me to stick with it!
I have a 2nd date tomorrow with a guy who is a marathon/triathalon person--it baffles me that someone who is so fit would even be interested in me, but he met me, asked me out for second date, so I guess....I don't know. It's crazy.
He's a bit older (about 13 years), so I wonder if my youth makes up for my being overweight? I just don't understand. I know this is ridiculous, if he asked me out again, he must not be disgusted by me, but I just can't help but question the whole thing. I'm not even sure how interested I am in him (personality wise, not appearance wise), so it may not even be relevent, but it's an interesting question in general.
Fruitlady, yes, we can conquer Halloween together!
Paris, I think it's great. Go out and have fun. Maybe he'll ask you to run with him or exercise with him. He may be the motivation you need. In any event, go out on the date and have fun now. You know how things go, when you aren't dating, you will wish you were. Let us know what you end up doing on the date. Good luck.
Day 4 awaits. Still feeling hacked off, will I keep feeling this way until I have undone the damage?! When I get back below 140p I am going to so appreciate!! No danger of me cracking! I have decided to use 2 new tools, wait 10 mins if I feel out of control with eating and breaking my weight loss into 2p chunks. Keep chipping away.
Keep strong everyone, that date sounds exciting. Hey, nothing ventured nothing gained.
I suppose it's exciting, I guess I just hate dating. So when I'm not dating, I'm relieved! I just don't have the time, and it's not a priority for me, so it's a struggle for me to fit it into my schedule.
If he were to suggest we work out together, I'm sure I'd take it the wrong way, regardless of his intentions. Plus, I'm not much for working out with others. And I would feel super self concious in front of him. I guess it's not really relevent now, I'm not sure if I'm really all that interested in him. We'll see after today. we're going to an art museum, one that I haven't been to, so at least I know I'll enjoy the activity!
Good job everyone!
Icedragon--way to go on day 19!
bonnie and i76--keep strong in those early days!
And Beth--day 9--over a week, that's great! feels so good, doesn't it?
: You can power through it!
