Binge Emergency

iriswhispers · 10-20-2009, 12:32 PM

foxxy - how did last night go?

lulu - welcome!

I got through last night with out bingeing and I'm so happy for that!

duqserb · 10-20-2009, 12:47 PM

Good job Iris!!!! :-) I also made it through last night without bingeing ;-)

~D~

OK Lizzy · 10-20-2009, 12:51 PM

I'm joining up too! I THOUGHT I could make it through last night without binging (which would be my first day in a long time), but finally caved about 8:00. Gee, wonder why I didn't sleep well last night? Today will be better -- because tomorrow I want to post that I had ONE DAY WITHOUT BINGING.

hvnlykarma · 10-20-2009, 12:58 PM

Is this a thread/forum for bulimics, too?

chloekinsicle · 10-20-2009, 01:54 PM

I would say yes, you are certainly welcome to participate! I didn't start the thread, but as a binge eater who progressed to bulimia, you can use the place to overcome binging.

Skyra · 10-20-2009, 07:23 PM

I'm not in a binge emergency yet, but I kind of feel like I will be in a day or two! There were cupcakes at work and I managed to contain myself around them (2 bite-sized cupcakes), but I kept having visions in my head of taking the whole box into the bathroom and eating them ALL -- where nobody could see me (not that I actually would at work). I'm embarrassed about that... but I wanted to get it out in the open...

Anyway, I'm starting to get a nagging feeling -- a feeling that I SHOULD be binging, almost! Does anyone else get this? Binging is such a normal habit for me that I kinda feel like something's wrong. I feel like I could use some reassurance that this is a normal feeling when you first break out of the binging habit. It is, isn't it? Does the feeling of "But I SHOULD binge, that's what I do" ever pass?

foxxy511 · 10-21-2009, 01:56 PM

Well, I'm sorry to report that it did not go well Monday night. And I am so frustrated by the fact that it didn't. And I had every intention of being on plan yesterday. And I was...up until I went out to dinner after class with some friends. Bad choices at the restaurant led to bad choices later in the evening. Really, really bad choices. I'm just so upset that I let myself do this to myself. Why is it so hard for me to stop? How come other people can make a decision to not binge and stick with it? What's wrong with me that I can't do the same thing?

But, Duqserb and Iris, I'm glad to hear that you guys were binge-free! That's awesome and really inspiring!

Skyra, I know exactly what you mean. I get that feeling to. What's worse is, I also get the feeling that I "deserve" to binge because I've been so "good" for a few weeks. That's total nonsense and I realize it, but that doesn't stop me from thinking it. If anyone has any tips or tricks on stopping that line of thinking..let me know!

Hope everyone is having a good day! Tomorrow is my weigh-in day and I was going to skip it. But I realize that ignoring the scale won't erase the three days of binging I had this week. So, I'm going to be accountable to myself, my actions, and you guys and weigh-in tomorrow. I know it'll be bad, but hopefully taking ownership and facing my actions/choices will help me move on and make better ones next time.

ohiofreespirit · 10-21-2009, 03:14 PM

Thank god, i have gotten past the worst of food binging. i was so bad in the evenings, i was in such denial. It never even occured to me what i was really doing. Thanks to this board, it sunk in one day and i've not looked back.

Once in a great while, i'll have a bad evening but this board saved my life and my figure.

sarahyu · 10-21-2009, 03:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Skyra

...I kept having visions in my head of taking the whole box into the bathroom and eating them ALL -- where nobody could see me (not that I actually would at work). I'm embarrassed about that... but I wanted to get it out in the open...

Why do we have the desire to eat when no one is looking? My dh went off on travel this week and I stopped off at the store and picked up a 1/2 gallon of ice cream (it was on sale you know) and a package of chocolate chip cookies (no sale, paid full price for it). It's not something I would do when he's around, I wouldn't dream of eating a 1/2 gallon of ice cream if anyone was looking. But since no one was looking.....

So, it didn't turn out as bad as it could have, about 1/3 of the way down into the ice cream I realized I was getting slightly nauseous what with the cookies I'd been eating. I put everything up and didn't get anything else the rest of the day. I feel kind of proud of myself that I didn't eat the entire 1/2 gallon in one sitting-it actually took 3 days but hey, it's an improvement for me. And I still had cookies left. I brought then into work to share with my coworkers.

Sarah in MD

lostbutstilltrying · 10-21-2009, 04:47 PM

Do you ever feel like you are standing on a mental ledge and have to find somebody to talk you down?!

I was having this obsession with an over-sized chocolate chip/M&M cookie that DD brought home from a birthday party and has been working on eating piece by piece (and would be devastated if I ate it) and I just could not stop thinking about it. I was trying to calculate how much I could break off or sneak, or claim broke off when it "fell" I mean its just ridiculous....

...and then my sister called and I talked with her for 30mins or so..... and this "need" just kinda passed.... and now I feel pretty silly

Skyra · 10-21-2009, 07:15 PM

lost -- that's exactly how I feel. People have told me "most food cravings disappear in 2 minutes, just do something else and it'll be gone before you know it" but that's not how it works for me, at least not when I'm stuck on something. I have had times where I have literally fought going to get chocolate (or whatever) for HOURS. It gets very tiring. And usually I cave in because I think, well, if I've wanted it this long, I must really want it, and I shouldn't be TOO mean to myself...

Silly brain. Oh well, I'm working on rewiring my brain where food is concerned. That's what's important, right?!

iriswhispers · 10-22-2009, 12:21 AM

lost, I do know what you mean! Good thing your sister called =)

sarahyu and Skyra, I also have these needs to eat without being seen - some days I find myself hoping my roommates won't be home when I get home so I can raid the fridge. I am trying to make myself stick to eating in the dining room rather than sneaking back to my room with food but it's hard sometimes!

Hello to everyone else - I hope you have a very strong day tomorrow!

KarenLee · 10-22-2009, 12:38 AM

I am getting so close to finishing my 4th binge-free day. I am starting to feel less bloated and I feel good. I had a really early dinner, though, and now I am heading home to a empty house...I am hungry so I know I need to eat something and I hope it is healthy...I have to make a plan before I get home or I will be in trouble.

duqserb · 10-22-2009, 12:50 AM

You can do it Karen! Do you like tuna? If you have some in your house, 1 can is only 100 calories..if it's in water that is. And the protein will fill you up! Good luck! I'm coming to the end of my third day and I also feel good :-)

~D~

Skyra · 10-22-2009, 12:56 AM

I've made it through 4 days! YAY!

That is the longest I've gone without binging in a long while.

Still feel the urge to binge but I'm still fighting. Karen -- dugserb -- iris -- so glad you're in with me on this!