I'm a little bit discouraged.
I've been binge eating for ten years, in different "ways" (more or less food, more or less often). I've managed at least to control the effects, I mean that I've learnt not to panic and to be confident that if I get back on track everything will go alright. And my weight agrees with this, I've never been so thin.
BUT
it just depresses me SO MUCH that I still binge. One day a week, once in a month... it doesn't matter.
Will I EVER win this battle? Will I ever be free from binge eating?
I mean seriously, I need to know. I know that you are all encouraging, like "yes you can do this!" and thanks for that girls
But I need to know if SOMEONE of you really got rid of this disease.
Because to me one month binge-free, or 6 months binge-free, is not enough. OF COURSE it's a great accomplishment and I would SIGN WITH MY BLOOD for that
, but I would like to know if out there there is someone who has been NOT ONLY binge-free for years... but also someone who doesn't think about food and calories and body all the time like me.
Let's say someone who had an eating disease and not only the disease is won, but this person is living with a "normal" approach to food. Like a very young kid with no counsciuosness.
Am I asking too much? Is it possible or should I be ready to face this thing all my life?