I fell off last night, and I was a little embarrassed to come on here
, just to say I did not stay binge free this week. My single reason for not succeeding all these years is when I mess up I give up. I give it an all or nothing attitude. Which is not good, because even thin people have their holiday or event or whatever where they eat to much of the wrong food. (I suppose they just don't do it often) No one can go their whole life and eat perfectly every single day.
So yesterday I did well until a little before dinner. I really wanted to bake something. Baking used to be a hobby of mine until I started dieting. I've since given it up. I focus more on cooking meals (healthy). While a healthy dinner was cooking, I made an applesauce walnut cake, with home made vanilla icing. Well, I purposely had a ridiculously small amount of dinner (a few bits) knowing I wanted some cake. When the cake was done I had a little larger than normal piece and thank goodness it came out horrible!!! I was so happy that it was pretty gross, even my husband didn't want it. After one piece I just ate some of the icing off the top, since the icing was good.
I ate my piece simply because I wanted something sweet. Then I had a meat ball from hubby's dinner. Then 3 pieces of buttered bread. (ok we use vegetable spread, but still)
When all was said and done, it was like 9:30pm!! This binge was not what it could have been. Had that I followed a recipe I knew (the one I used was a new one I got off online so I didn't know it was going to be gross) and the whole cake was edible, I would have ate the whole thing, I swear.
But this morning, I'm right back on. I must admit that I will mess up again before I reach my goal. And that's ok.
Perfection is not an option, but success is!
