and it seems to be working thus far.
i have a huge huge problem with bingeing. usually i can't make it even a few days without going berserk.
i was trying to restrict too much i think. not allowing myself to eat certain things. one week it was flour, another it was no meat. the next no dairy. i couldn't handle it. and i'd only make it a few days and then go crazy and binge. and in turn feel like crap.
so last week, i decided to have 2 goals, exercise and not binge. i generally eat pretty sensibly as it is, so i figure if i can just cut out the bingeing, and slowly make better and better choices and cut back on portion sizes little by little, i'll be able to stick to it better.
and it's worked. i've gone a whole week now without bingeing. that's not to say that i haven't had some snacks. i have eaten frozen yogurt, some candies, etc. but. i've been eating so much less, and i think it's because i dont feel as deprived. i'm trying to listen to what i really want, and i'm finding if i allow myself to eat that, then i'll be satisfied with even a normal portion rather than large amounts of foods that i don't even want.
last week, i wanted pizza so badly, but i refused to get/make it. so instead, i freaked out and binged on random crap in my house til i was full and still not content. this week for lunch i've eaten my own "pizza" and it's been amazing. a whole wheat pita with lots of vegs and lowfat cheese. and i'm content. not stuffed to the gills, not hungry. and i dont want anything else to fill that void.
i think i may have found something that i can live with.