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Originally Posted by rachinma
shattered: how old are you? Since you're still living at home with your mother, you are going to have to put your foot down and request healthier foods for your meals. Do you have a part-time job, so you can buy your own foods? Or can you volunteer to do the grocery shopping, so you can pick out your own healthy foods?
If you want to take control of your eating disorder, you have to be ready to take control of your life and take responsbility for your actions. I hope that doesn't sound harsh. I know you're young, but trust me: now is the time to begin taking control of your own life. It saddens me to see that you don't see any other options other than binging or diet pills.
hi rachinma, No, that wasnt harsh. Im 17. I wish I had a job. I live in Ny so you would think that it would be easier to get a job right since theres places everywhere. But no, its so hard. I applied for 51 jobs so far, as of October. And no call backs.
I would love to stand up and tell me mom, "hey listen I want bottled water, or I want fruit" but then shed either yell at me, make fun of me, tell me shes broke, tell me I have to pay for it, or my personal favorite "I have no money to waste on your food, I have to buy my weight watchers" yet she has yet to lose a pound on any diet, cuz she cant commit. Its hard. Cuz my mom takes her problems out on me, cuz im the only one living with her (my father doesnt count cuz he either yells at her or is at work) so she takes it all out on me. And her verbal abuse is probably the reason for the start of my e.d.
Sorry if this is long. I would love to get the food I want. And eat right. But I cant. My boy friend has a job so I might ask him every week to buy me food. It might actually be easier, cuz I cant binge in front of anyone else. I can only do it alone. So maybe if I only eat with him, Ill actually be aware of when Im hungry and full.