Does anyone else have an extremely BORING job?! I am always busy... but I work in an office where everything is repetitive and I do the same thing for 8 hours a day... My mind always wanders and the first thing that comes to mind is how excited I am to be healthier, how I am going to be able to live a longer life with my husband, and all positive things... then suddenly my mind goes to food... and I obsess over it... I struggle and wait for my lunch break. I eat my regular packed lunch... and then sit there... and realize I WANT CHOCOLATE... I WANT JUNK FOOD... I WANT TO BINGE... I try to talk myself out of it and wait a couple hours... but then I suddenly find myself downstairs in the break room, loading my purse up with cookies, candy bars, and poptarts! The process of getting up from my desk and attacking the vending machine is such a blur after.. almost like I blacked out! And I feel awful about myself and wonder why I did it. I didn't do it at all last week, but today, I know I am setting myself up... I am sitting here thinking how excited I am to eat tomorrow at work. It's so easy because I wait until around 2pm when no one is on their lunch break, so NO ONE sees me...
ALSO-I work with a lot of older women who looove to feed people. They bring in homemade cookies, cakes, and pies and put them on the counter... And I get my work from that counter, so I have to walk by the foods around every 1/2 hour or so.
I know I am not doing this because I am hungry or I am depriving myself. I eat 3 healthy snacks a day (fruits, veggies with pepper, whole grains, protein....) It is purely psychological.
Does anyone have any advice for me? It's easy to say "think about it... think about the pros and cons..." but that is my problem.. it's like a big blur! I don't know how I get to the vending machine, or what I am thinking when I do it!
I also told my boss a couple months ago that I'd like to pick up more job responsibilities... I was trained on two new jobs... I have three things on my plate now and I am still bored.
UGH I can't wait until I am done college in May of 2010 so I can get out of this office!!!
If you got this far, you deserve a yummy fruit parfait made with fat free whipped cream
Thank you for your help!!!