I have two kinds of binges:
There's the pre-meditated kind where I go to 3 fast foods restaurants, buy a basket full of junk food at the grocery store, rush home in a trance (seriously, I am so unaware of my surroundings, my brain is just shouting GO AND EAT! GO AND EAT!) and then turn on some TV and just eat everything. Usually I get through half the stuff and feel full and it makes me feel bad... a binge means that TOMORROW I'll be starting my diet so this bad food HAS to go... and that usually means stuffing it all in. Thankfully I haven't done this in awhile. Usually these type of binges are "last hurrahs" before I start a diet (which inevitably fail within a day or two) or they are rewards for feeling crappy.
The second kind of binge is the unintentional. This is where I finish eating something and I'm still hungry, so I have a cookie, then I'll have some candy, then I'll have some crackers, then I'll have another cookie, and I'll keep eating until I suddenly feel way too full. This is far more likely these days and its usually from craving something sweet after I eat. This is why eating hard candy for dessert is best because it allows my stomach to digest enough of my meal to feel full or satisfied. I seriously think when I finish eating a meal and still feel hungry I panic! I really need to learn to give myself 20-30 minutes and then see if I'm actually hungry. It's hard.
I consider the first far more indicative of a binge-eating disorder. Those were my darkest days when that was a regular part of my life.
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