I know what you mean about destroying something and the anger.
Recently I have been trying to talk myself out of my binges when they happen and the thing the
always says to the
is "I DON'T CARE!!!!" Like a small child. It doesn't matter how much I reason, and how much I tell myself that I won't feel good afterwards, the child in me says, "Don't care, want FOOD NOW!!!!!"
I haven't got to the point where I can make myself care... Maybe it's distraction I need not caring