Revelation on going off plan Wednesday 3/17/04
Well ladies time for true confessions.....Last night i had a little run in with a bowl of chili (it tasted REALLY good) I have had sucha bean craving and not green beans, I want starchy beans. Then I had a run in with Krispy Kreme dougnuts (they are like crack!!!) So I sat down last night and I thought why did you do that?? And i am not hiding behind anything here...this is why......Cause I wanted to (being totally honest). I justified it to myself cause i was feeling down yesterday and then I wanted Krispy Kreme's and I drove there and got them and then I wanted chili so I ate it. I just decided like Sped said before, I am not hiding behind excuses, I LET myself do it and i justified it to myself. I actually feel kinda good for having this cheat, this cheat taught me something about myself. New rules I set up for myself.
1. stop justifying why, it is simple you did it because you wanted! No more excuses.
2. When you are feeling down i need tougher armour, it is such al learned behavior my whole life, feeling down comfort yourself with food, get stronger amour, you are going to feel better the next day so just get through this day and move on to the next.
3. Remember you only are hurting yourself when you do that, the person you may be mad at is feeling just fine while you take yourself out with Krispy Kreme's!!
So those are the revelations I had last night. And actually i think for me they are good lessons learned, so I will take this as a learning cheat, something good has to come out of it right?? I am not saying I will never cheat again, i am just saying To have a revelation is good, since most of these habits have been with me since I was a kid.
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