Thank you Kiwi, and to you as well VickieLou, I am sorry for the delay, I haven't been doing great at all with my journey. In fact, I want to post about it, but long story short I'm not on the same journey as I was when I began this log to Onederland. I don't mean that in a self-critical way, but I've been off-track for over a year (as far as consistency, the longest amount of time I can recall keeping consistent was like 2+ weeks, which produced results but not as good as I wanted because I've been non-stop comparing myself to the "old smaller" version of myself). Now I have to accept where I am, start from scratch, accept that I am not only WORTH the effort of a healthier lifestyle, but how incredibly important it is (sometimes I lose sight of that and can only focus on how fat I've gotten and will continue to get if I don't get it together), I nor any of you are beyond help, you are NOT beyond redemption if you want to see it that way no matter how much you weigh or how much you regained. That is such a hard f***ing lesson (excuse my french but I'm being blunt). When I began my regain journey lol, it destroyed my self-esteem, I didn't realize I could feel so low about a few pounds, but that low feeling helped me regain 50+ lbs. now I find myself weighing in the early 260's.
I want to post more on this later, I have to go out, but I appreciate you ladies sticking with me for SOOOOOOO long, seriously, without you, without trying even some of the time I would be in the 300's or close to it again by now. Sadly I know myself and how out of control my eating can be. Thanks for reading.
BTW Kiwi I am sooooooooo proud of you, and happy for you, you've come such a long way, and I know you're going to accomplish your goals, you're doing fan-freakin'-tastic girly!! <3
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I'm doing better, I have a bad sugar addiction so I've taken to buying fun-size candy bars & storing them in the freezer to prevent myself from going crazy but still getting my sugar fix. Today I came in at 258 lbs. with light clothes on (there might have been a point something added to that, I was just relieved to be out of the 260's to be honest). My partner and I eat a lot of junk food, but I am getting better (though not perfect) about using some self-control, and buying single-serving bags instead of turning a party size bag into a single serving lol. I'm not doing WONDERFUL but I am getting better, and I am happier. One of my recent motivations is my boyfriend, he's really down about the weight loss surgery idea, and to be honest I am too (for myself only, though I support others making the choice to have it), and he believes I can do it on my own, well if I am honest with myself I know I can too, I've just been off-track for so long and it felt overwhelming to me.
Last edited by Candidcamster; 02-19-2017 at 08:53 PM.
to You CandidCamster! I was off my food plan in 2016 from some time in March Until November of that Year. I gained 25 Lbs and have been struggling to lose it. I know how frustrating it is to lose and re-gain. But we just have to keep trying. I have a problem with sweets and carbs too. Good Luck!
Trust me. I'm dealing with some gain as well. We have to remember not to be too hard on ourselves. It's called a journey for a reason. We got this. Glad to see you snagged yourself a boo Thang. I'm still a single chick but looking under every rock. I haven't been happy with myself lately so that is probably why I haven't found anybody yet. I gotta set myself up right first before He can plop somebody awesome into my lap.
Hi ladies@ VickieLou & kiwi1222! I've started over, my start weight was about 263 lbs. and today I weighed in at 260.8 lbs., I want to do a daily food log again. I was considering bumping up the old calorie counting thread, but I guess I can use this one? BTW if anyone wants to add theirs to this one too that is fine lol, my calories are around 2,000+ everyday (but still at a deficit) and I plan to do my one mile walk today. Also in the tmi category my TOM arrived today lol, *sighs*. I am also posting some current "before" pictures of myself and either today or tomorrow I'm planning to write a letter to my future self to be opened at the end of June/2017 to encourage me to never stop moving forward. My goal is 26 lbs. (10% of my body weight) and hopefully 40 lbs. down by the end of summer.
So far I've had -
Weight Watchers Salted Caramel Brownie Bliss 1 brownie/80 calories
Trader Joe's Bold & Smokey Kansas City Style Bbq Sauce 2 tbsp/60 calories
Simply Balanced Organic Honey 1 tbsp/60 calories
Quorn Soy-free & Meatless Pesto & Mozzarella Chicken Cutlets 1 cutlet/250 calories
Hampton Creek Just Chocolate Chunk Cookie 1 cookie/170 calories
Earth Best Stuffed Bites Broccoli Kale and Cheese 2 servings (4 pockets)/300 calories
More coming soon, thank you!
Total calories for the day - 2,001
Last edited by Candidcamster; 03-15-2017 at 08:51 PM.
Hey everyone my calories for 3/17/2017 were - 1,781
No weigh in (I binged between the night of 3/16/2017 and the morning of 3/17/2017).
BTW the pictures posted are recent (I think from March 12th, 2017) at my current weight range (early 260's) and these are my new "before" pictures to give me something to compare my future smaller figure to.
Last edited by Candidcamster; 03-18-2017 at 06:35 PM.
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Hi Candidcamster! I'm so glad to see you are getting back on track after a little slip up. And that's all it was. Don't look back, just look forward. Keep your eyes on the prize!
Thanks so much Wannabehealthy, girl I'm hanging in there, and yes I've had a lot of "oops" lately with my food choices. A little while ago I misplaced my Amazon Fire Phone (which I no longer use as a phone, but for it's camera, music and web-surfing capabilities) and went through all of these pictures of me taken over the past year or so and was amazed at how "small" I was in some of them. Sad to say it took me regaining over 50 lbs. (today's weigh in was 264.8 in very light clothes) to appreciate how great I looked before. My lowest low was 209.2 which for some of you is a start weight, but for me was my smallest adult weight ever and I actually felt beautiful at that weight. I didn't intend to stop there, but my confidence was great at that time compared to now.
I have to get going so I won't be able to do this post justice at the moment but I want to say some negatives that I've gained along with the weight that I am hoping to lose -
1. Heavy breathing (my bf and I went for a walk some weeks ago and he mentioned how heavy I was breathing, it was a very slow & casual walk in chilly weather, not good).
2. Most of my non-stretch clothes from my smaller days no longer fit me, even many leggings won't fit. I recently bought a a couple of Madden Girl Juniors Plus leggings in a size 2x and couldn't get them on, it was really disheartening.
3. No energy, a hard time sleeping, anxiety, depression, sadness, self-consciousness, etc. all related to my advanced size.
4. Showing signs of diabetes, recently I've had an issue of frequent urination and I don't think there's been a dramatic change in my water intake, this is worrying, I haven't gotten checked out but I will soon and will report back. Based on my sugar obsession it wouldn't surprise me but it would really upset me.
There may be more posted tonight, thanks for reading .
My calories for yesterday (3/23/2017) - 2,040
My weigh in for 3/23/2017 - 264.8
My calories for today 3/24/2017 (I've pre-planned my food, but if anything changes I'll update) - 1,961
My weigh in for today 3/24/2017 - 263.8 lbs.
My biggest goals right now are -
Weighing under 225 by the end of summer (September 21st is the last day of summer) I'm praying & moving my feet to get to this goal. My feeling right now is dedication, patience and commitment to my goal(s) and the formula that will logically get me there. If I find something isn't working, I aim to adapt/evolve my technique until I find what works for me, as I have in the past. I want to lose weight more than virtually anything (shy of world peace lol) this means literally EVERYTHING to me. I feel like I can't stand for this anymore, and the only viable solution is weight loss so that is what I am doing. Being severely overweight doesn't just weigh on you physically, but emotionally, and mentally. I won't get into all of the crazy crap I've been through due to my weight issues, even now there are things that if I were smaller I wouldn't be going through imo...Sorry to be negative, but being honest.
There's a great video by a Youtuber I've followed for years named Kimonica (she's lost 300 lbs. without surgery and has been logging her journey for YEARS!) here's a video she did on attracting men throughout her different weights. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPdpRrDHeEs
Hi everyone, I went to the Houston Rodeo on Saturday (3/25), did a ton of walking, and on Sunday (3/26) I came in at 260.8 lbs. my calories on Rodeo day are unknown because I samples some sweets but I did so without wild abandon, and on Sunday my calories were 2,091 and I did 1 mile of Leslie Sansone walk at home workout (about 19 minutes of exercise, broken into two parts). I worked up a good sweat doing the 1 mile workout so I'm happy.
Thank you Kiwi, and to you as well VickieLou, I am sorry for the delay, I haven't been doing great at all with my journey. In fact, I want to post about it, but long story short I'm not on the same journey as I was when I began this log to Onederland. I don't mean that in a self-critical way, but I've been off-track for over a year (as far as consistency, the longest amount of time I can recall keeping consistent was like 2+ weeks, which produced results but not as good as I wanted because I've been non-stop comparing myself to the "old smaller" version of myself). Now I have to accept where I am, start from scratch, accept that I am not only WORTH the effort of a healthier lifestyle, but how incredibly important it is (sometimes I lose sight of that and can only focus on how fat I've gotten and will continue to get if I don't get it together), I nor any of you are beyond help, you are NOT beyond redemption if you want to see it that way no matter how much you weigh or how much you regained. That is such a hard f***ing lesson (excuse my french 
but I'm being blunt). When I began my regain journey lol, it destroyed my self-esteem, I didn't realize I could feel so low about a few pounds, but that low feeling helped me regain 50+ lbs. now I find myself weighing in the early 260's. 
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