Normally Iím okay with, and expect some fluctuations as I work towards my goal. Iíve been losing weight for almost 4 months now, and at my lowest weight (which was this past Tuesday) I had lost almost 23 lbs. I feel wonderful! I feel more confident, I feel better when I go somewhere and make healthy choices, Iím slowly starting to love myself the way I should be loved, and not hate every inch of pudgy flesh.
So why does my weight keep going back to the same spot?
I had been somewhat stalled around 202 lbs last weekend, and by Tuesday I had had a ďwhooshĒ down to 198.7. I thought I was getting closer to a ďsafe zoneĒ where my fluctuations wouldnít have me going back into the 200ís (I tend to fluctuate about 1-3lbs every day). I was meticulous with my calorie intake, measuring everything, weighing, writing it down, etc. On Wednesday I bruised/pulled a muscle in my foot, so I havenít been able to go for my walks, but I made sure that whatever went into my mouth would be accounted for.
And Iíve gained! Ever since Wednesday, Iíve slowly been creeping back up into the 200s. On Friday, when I weighed in at 202, I was frustrated, and decided to let myself take a break from counting (this has worked for me in the past). I didnít go balls-to-the-wall and eat whatever, I still ate things I would normally eat in portions I would normally choose, but I didnít weigh, didnít track, etc. When I weighed in on Saturday at 200.4, I felt better, and was ready to count again. I just barely went over 1200 calories (I had some wine that took me to 1250 ish), and when I got on the scale this morning I was 201.4.
I donít get it! Itís like the on the days that I actually count and keep track, I gain weight, but on the days where I just eat without monitoring, I lose! Iím not stressed when I track calories, heck the Myfitnesspal app makes it simple. Iím not sure if hormones are playing a part, or weatherÖ.Iíve been able to see trends up until this point when I gain and I canít see anything that would cause it! I donít even nibble without the calories being recorded, so I know Iím not overeating. My walks werenít long, maybe 30-45 minutes at 2mph, so it really didnít burn a whole lot of extra calories either.
Could I be under-eating? With my Fitbit measuring my activity, my sedentary days with no exercise have my average calories burned (for the whole day) at 1850 ish, so I like to keep my food intake between 1000-1200 calories. Iíve been trying to keep it more towards the 1200 calories by adding things like almonds and cheese as snacks so I donít get too low. On the days I donít count, while I donít think I go too high, Iíd guesstimate that I eat about 1400 calories give or take.
UghÖI know, Iím whining
I tell myself that my weight loss is not going to happen overnight, that there will be stalls and gains, that I will get frustrated and irritated and just want to go get the cheeseburger from Five Guys that Iíve been craving, with an order of very large, very salty fries. It just sucks.
Thanks for listening
Hereís hoping this week is better!