My next mini-goal is to get into a regular size 16 with no struggle. I only have one regular size 16 piece of clothing in my whole closet, a pair of blue jean shorts from about 10 years ago which means there isn't a stitch of lycra in them at all!
For some reason, I just keep putting it off and putting off. I'm so afraid, what if they don't fit. I'm afraid I'll get discouraged and quit like I've done so many times before.
I keep telling myself, I'll try them at my next weigh in. But I still haven't tried them on. I took them off the hanger the other day and held them up to myself, but that's as far as I've gotten.
I stumbled upon an old journal, from about 6 years ago when I lost about 15 pounds and I wrote in there, "the shorts fit!!" And I was 10 pounds heavier at that time than I am now.
Am I the only one who has these weird fears?
I am really trying to make myself put them on today. I've been telling myself over and over, "if they don't fit, it's ok - just keep going and they will!"
All my 18w's are falling off me. I looked like a hobo Sunday in my baggy dress. I've got to get past this fear.